Last Night. 

What a messed up night.








I took extra pain medicines.

Twisted and turned. Carefully I think.

I’m still together. All parts.

Massaged my joints and used hot bags.

Ate a chocolate cookie at 4:00am.

Spent sometime on Pinterest.

Tried sleeping.

Failed again.

Did some breathing exercise hoping I’d sleep.

Didn’t work.

Couldn’t move much anymore.

My body has kept me up all night.

Or maybe it was my mind this time.

No, I’m not sure. I can’t think right now.

Maybe I had too much green tea yesterday?

Ok. I seriously do not know what kept me up.

The pain in my back was horrible. I know this.

And I’m in pain even now. As expected, as usual, as per normal.

It’s just one of those days. I can do it. I have done this before so many times.

But it doesn’t get any easier each time.

No sleep = pain level amplified.

I could’ve just taken a warm shower.

But yes, I couldn’t move.

Am I even making any sense?


I’m done. I can’t write today.







I can’t wait to be able to nap later. I need a long 9-hour nap.

Goodnight. No wait, Good Morning!



 One of those days when all you can do is sleep with oils and hot packs.

My sleep was terrible last night. In fact, I haven’t been sleeping too well and I assume it’s because I’m still getting used to my new place. I usually need some extra time to settle in and get used to a new space. We all do I suppose.
It took me a while to fall asleep last night and I got up far too early. 5:20am? I woke up feeling extremely cold; to a point that I was shivering and needed to wear a sweatshirt, put on my socks, switch off the AC and get myself two hot packs to hold on to. Getting out of bed was a challenge because I hadn’t slept enough and my back as tight and in pain. Nope, I didn’t get a dream and nor did I wake up feeling anything. I just woke up feeling abnormally cold.

No, I wasn’t running a fever either. I checked. My temperature was kind on the lower side instead. I don’t usually get up because it’s too cold in my room. I’d get up if it gets too hot sometimes. The AC needs servicing, so you can imagine, it really wasn’t that cold to begin with. I decided to push myself out of bed, even if I was freezing to death, and start with my day. I had to because my brain was active (tired, but active) and my body didn’t want to cooperate. I know it needed rest but staying in bed wasn’t helping.

Within an hour or so, I got back in bed again. There was no way I could’ve continued with the day. There is no way I’m going to be able to sit with my laptop or get anything done, even though my brain could handle it. It doesn’t even seem like a work-from-bed day. Today, my body needs extra care and rest and that’s what it has to get.

That’s just how it is – every day looks different, yet can feel the same.