I’m going to keep this post really short;
One. Because I’m mentally and physically so tired from my recent move and I’m just all over the place right now and would need time to settle in, be at peace, bring myself together and be able to write anything.
Two. I bumped my left shoulder into the main gate of my friend’s apartment and that has caused an impact so bad that the pain is shooting up into my neck and down into my shoulder blade and the whole arm, including the last two fingers. It feels heavy and I can barely use it. No, a slight bump into a gate should NOT be causing so much pain to anyone.
Three. My left neck is sprained and no one knows why or how. Is it possible to just be walking down an aisle in a grocery store with nothing in your hands, and suddenly sprain your neck without any quick movements or jerks? Technically no. But yes. That’s what happened and within seconds, all the surrounding muscles turned rock solid. It was no where close to normal. I can’t look to my right without experiencing an intensely sharp pull on the left side of my neck; probably from the bottom of my head, around my ear, all the way down into my collar bone.
With that, there isn’t much I’m able to do. Any form of slight movement on the left hurts me a lot. I had acupuncture today and unfortunately, she wasn’t able to release the tight muscles or get rid of that intense pain. I’ll see how I feel over the day. Sometime such treatments take a few hours to show effect.
I’m so fatigued and drained out. Last few weeks have been very challenging.
Well, at least I’m in my new place now and had already managed to move everything over before this happened!
The last time I tried acupuncture and cupping was sometime in 2011. My left shoulder was still causing me a lot of pain even after an open surgery on it some 6-8 months before that. I was told that my recovery period was abnormal and no one new why. I had no clue what was happening to my body and was frantically going around trying anything and everything to experience just ONE day of painless-ness. Nothing worked and no one knew why.
We had no idea where this was heading.
My first experience with acupuncture wasn’t good at all – it didn’t help in anyway and it would make me feel exhausted all the time. I used to go for two sessions in a week and be in bed with a fever the rest of the days. After a point I thought it was time to stop.
Just a couple of weeks back, I decided it was time to give it another shot. I decided to open my mind up once again and just see what happens. You know how timing plays a big role sometimes? Lots of new changes are happening around me at the moment and this seemed like something to try again. I’ve had three sessions till now and they’ve been alright. I don’t have much to say about it yet I guess so I’ll just wait to see how things turn out.
This time, one of the major reasons for me to continue with acupuncture is the Doctor that I’m seeing. We can communicate in English and she’s been very very kind and patient with me. I actually understand what she’s doing to my body and I like that. I want to feel like a part of this entire healing process. I like to have a little bit of that responsibility and empowerment. It’s my health after all. And this women, she explains. She listens. She asks questions. She wants to know details and she wants to tell you more.
2012 was different – I wanted to be fixed and I didn’t care how that happened. I needed someone to ‘fix’ my broken body. I didn’t think I had much of a role to play..
I’ve read (and I’m seeing that) what a great difference it can make to have a supportive healthcare team, so at least for the next couple of weeks till I develop a new pain-management plan for myself, I’ll continue to see her. It’s all about trail-and-error at the end of the day. I’m at a point where I may be making big shifts again and really, everything that’s happening seems to be suggesting the same.
I’m excited to see what comes next.
Until I’m able to write next time,
Lots and lots of love,