I’m experiencing deep emotional pain right now. I’m going to acknowledge that, let it be until it leaves, and also keep in mind that I’ve done my very best.
Self-awareness doesn’t mean that you’ll never make mistakes. It means that even if you did, you will pick up on it and respond in a way that best aligns with your highest self.
It also means that you walk away from things and people that take away from you.
Trust me when I say this — it doesn’t matter how long you know someone or if you share a blood relationship with that person.
What matters is how much you and them evolve as people, how you communicate and whether you’re truly there for them.
This year has taught me that no matter how much healing work of acceptance and forgiveness you do, some dynamics never change. You do the work for yourself; so that you can create a life and relationships that are supportive.
It doesn’t excuse their behaviour and all the nasty things they may have done to you, but it frees you from the suffering of it. It frees up time and energy for better things in life.
In the last two days, I’ve reached a completion with two relationships in my life. I am very peacefully convinced that I have tried my best and that I no longer need to keep anchoring the relationships.
I am not longer available for it.
I am letting go, with love, what I thought I shared with them.