Ending April with a haircut!šš¼āāļø It was over a year since I had a haircut, and once again, my recent left shoulder strain + health issues throughout April made me realise it was high time. With EDS (pain, sublaxation, dislocations, heat intolerance etc.) and SIBO (excessive hairfall etc.), I find it quite challenging to manage long hair so Iām glad I finally got it done. Itās crazy how light my head feels after 7 inches of hair is chopped off! I look forward to much lesser time and effort put into haircare throughout summer.š
Month: April 2018
#butyoudontlooksick
Long story short: This is what a bit of mascara + motivation + medicines & a beautiful lehenga can do. It took me approximately an hour and half to get ready š¢, my dad drove me to the event and back (this is was too special an event to miss) within an hour, and I have just been resting in bed since. After one week (and one tiring month of health issues one after the other) of fighting some GI issues and contemplating whether to leave my house for a short bit or not, I couldnāt be happier I made it there!šš¼āØš
Update
It seems Iāve caught a stomach bug, no idea where, when and how. Itās not like I have been eating out or eating anything raw.
So the bug, along with my existing SIBO symptoms became a little much for my body to handle, especially since I havenāt been too well anyway given the stress of recent transition. I had to be rushed to the hospital two days back because my fever shot up and I was shivering violently, so much so I could barely speak or hold my phone. Itās 40 degrees here and I was wearing 3 thick layers + wrapped in a thick blanket, had my socks on and yet it wasnāt enough.
They gave me an injection and called for some blood work. Blood work showed that both my red and white blood cell count was abnormally low but for understandable reasons. For now, we just need to observe and see how things go. I’ve been put on two strong antibiotics + other medicines for management of the gut symptoms and fever.
Gosh. April has been INTENSE. I had two wisdom teeth extracted, then a massive allergy attack, followed by a great fall in the bathroom and now a flare of SIBO + a stomach infection. Iām terribly fatigued and disoriented. Fever, nausea and stomach cramps keep me falling in and out of sleep. Iām feeling weak as hell, especially after a couple of palpitation episodes.
Again, if this was a few years back, Iād have been a total wreck; not just physically but mentally + emotionally too. Of course itās not easy to deal with so much all at once but what I know from the last nine.five years is that it gets easier when youāre on the same team as your body. Extremely thankful for the love and support of my physiotherapist, my friend Rohan, dad and my familyās ex-helper who happened to be around.
While I completely support the idea of living as independently as possible even when weāre chronically ill, I also know that there are and will be times we just need extra help to manage our health and we must learn to ask for it.
#ehlersdanlossyndrome #hypermobility #chronicillness #disgestive #chronicwarrior #spoonie #EDS #spoonielife #multisystemic #illness #chronic #pain #fatigue #sibo #weakness #bloodwork #newplace #hospital #hospitallife
Morning ritualāØ
Day four of not leaving home and spending most of my time in bed. I slipped and fell in the bathroom last Sunday. Thankfully, no dislocations or major injuries (Iām guessing) but my body is in a bit of shock. My right side took the most impact, mainly my hip, my right knee, elbow and wrist. As expected, thereās some bruising and inflammation around the impacted areas and there is a deep ache in the surrounding muscles which doesnāt seem to reduce no matter what.
In the last three weeks, Iāve had two wisdom teeth extracted, a terrible allergy attack and then a fall in bathroom. All in all, pain is out the roof, fatigue is at its worst and all that gives me a bit of relief is using ice packs, staying horizontal as much as possible and doing my rituals to remain sane. Iām a strong believer of having personal rituals to remain grounded through the unpredictability of life. Iāve got soooo many things coming up from next week! Itās bloody exciting!
As usual, Iām practising being as present as possible, which means really grounding myself into what is NOW and taking it one hour at a time. Iām giving myself what I call āforceful restā where I make sure to rest even if I donāt want to. I donāt want to because my mind doesnāt want to. It always wants to do more.
When I go into the āforceful restā mode, I make sure I listen to the needs of my body and let everything else adjust accordingly. Iāve noticed that for me to recover from unexpected trauma like that, rest and sleep is of utmost importance.
Thank you for reading!
#ehlersdanlossyndrome #hypermobility #rituals #reading #writing #spoonie #rest #recovery #healing #pain #life #unpredictable
EDS may be a big part of my journey but it isnāt everything ā¤ļø
Iām starting to see how this illness is a vehicle for me to look inwards, to become a better person and to live a more fulfilled life.
Iām not grateful for the pain I experience but Iām definitely grateful for the lessons and blessings that have come along with being made out of faulty collagen.
The more I accept this illness and the body that Iām in, the more I realise that I am more. Ā That I am whole despite the brokenness that often follows an illness.
I’d like to believe that as I continue to do the work I need to do for my own healing, I am more equipped to offer the same to the world. One thing is for sure, Iām learning to own this illness but Iāll never let the illness own me.
Love to all
-M
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#affirmations
#notetoself
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Garlic zoodles + stirfried spinach with garlic sauce
Zoodles after a makeover :)
Iām finally able to eat a bit of solid food after two wisdom teeth extractions over a week ago. For the last 9 days, Iāve been surviving on ice cream (4 medium tubs), purĆ©ed rice and soups (without any spice) at room temperature. You have no idea how relieved I was to find zucchini out here. It made my day. If thereās anyone who can live on zoodles of all kinds thatās me šš¼āāļø
They are so versatile, Iāve used them in stirfry, salads, Italian sauces, Asian soup noodles etc. As for the peanut sauce, I usually prefer making it from scratch but I could do with some extra energy for myself so I went with peanut butter as the base, added coriander, spring onions, garlic powder and a bit of chilli and soy sauce to make it into this delicious sauce! Alright, thatās all for today. Have a great week ahead!