It’s another big day today :)

I can’t believe I’m doing this; that I have decided to do this. I’m excited to see how things go, now that I know my body so much more than I once did

I still can’t avoid some of the emotions though 

All the memories from the past when I made choices thinking they’d work and my body just gave away keep coming back 

These memories don’t hurt me as much but they are there 

I know this is different 

I have to remind myself that this is different 

Today, the situation is a lot worse and a lot better (at the same time) and I think I am equipped with the right tools 

I’m making choices that are right for my health and for me, as a person as a whole 

And this choice too, feels right; there is enough flexibility for me to work at my pace and yet learn so much 

I think can do this but I can never let anything else take priority over my health 💖

I’ll write more when I can. I’m officially exhausted for today :) 

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